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two links and then i rationalize topics for my own poetry:

April 23, 2007

i don't know when this happened, but i decided that i like very little art. i am judgmental and am quick to shit on things. this even applies to my own work.

read tao lin's essay on cho seung-hui and loneliness and cnn.

i also feel like i don't take dumps on art, or what other people do, in a way that should deter anyone from making art that i consider shitty. make crappy art. i will probably look at it. i wish they taught historically bad art in school. crappy paintings from the victorian era or something. i want to see them. thank you.

eric zimmerman has nice things to say about appreciating art, which i sort of agree with, but in a pessimistic 'people should do what they want but i don't have to care or look at it but probably will anyway' way.

here is a list of possible topics for poetry, and the honest but shitty and spoiled sounding reasons i cannot write about these topics:

1. love.

i am in love. i love someone and have for a long time. we are happy. it is great, and i am happy, and other people fucking hate hearing about how happy and content you are with someone else. i hate happy people, and when i was single, i hated being single but hated happy couples more. henry rollins gives the best example of people hating happiness in a monologue he did. i'm not going to explain the monologue or give examples of why it is relevant to bring up, or even spend the time to research which monologue it was. listen to everything henry rollins has ever done, and you will find this relevant monologue there.

2. class.

i come from what would now be considered an upper class family (we would be considered middle class ten years ago). i am not sorry for this, and i do not have a complex about it. i have nice parents who did well for themselves. i have a nice income to live off of from a nice job. it is great and has made my life uncomplicated. i write an okay amount, and am a successful as i want to be at everything i work medium-hard at, and this is only because i have had room to make mistakes without falling into debt. no one wants to hear about this, because again, happiness is stupid.

3. family.

i have a loving and supportive family. my mom brought chicken and dumplings over for dinner tonight because i am sick. my dad called me twice to see how i was feeling. i ate lunch and spent some time with my brother yesterday, even though i was light-headed and had body aches. he was in town for a school project. i talked to my grandma yesterday. i was never abused or neglected in any way. my parents and family support everything i do. this is boring and not good material for poetry or for some 'struggling through life' essay, and again no one wants to hear about a person having a boring nice life unless they are boring themselves.

here is a list of possible topics for my poetry, and small justifications for why i can write about these topics, which is a harder list to make because i write about these topics frequently:

1. waste.

i waste energy and time and my own health. i cannot control this easily. i don't know why, and i am not going to make excuses for this. i am an idiot. most people are worse than me, but that is never a justification for anything, 'most people are worse than me' is an excuse for being an asshole. i used to weigh three-hundred pounds and ate fast food for every meal and drive a truck and spend all of my money on gas and pot and beer and consumer electronics. i still spend all of my money on beer and consumer electronics, and i am still wasteful.

2. death.

i am comfortable talking about death. i am going to die. people like reading about death, so it will also interest other people. i experience death all of the time. i am usually scared that my own death will happen, or that someone that i like will die. this is not paranoia. it is death, and there is a lot of it everywhere, and most people know something about it unless they are babies.

3. existing in a world that is insecure, unstable, and full of nothing that is completely reliable or permanent.

actual existence is a good topic. most people do not confront this and need to. even if you believe in a god, you need to consider the small possibility that you are wrong. everyone, right now, needs to think about the most radical or strong belief they have, and think about the possibility that they are incorrect in this belief. this is what makes people better, the acknowledgment that they could possibly be wrong, and recognizing the probability that they have skewed and false opinions and beliefs is much larger than they are comfortable with.

i am tired of writing this post, and i don't really have a way to end it without feeling stupid or giving to much weight to what i just wrote, which at times probably sounded arrogant. i've been sweating for two weeks and am on a lot of steroids right now.

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that's not so pessimistic, i am constantly guilty of the very same things…i am okay with that.

here is a site for your bad-art fix:

http://www.museumofbadart.org/

happy sweating and steroid use, don't crush too many heads.

- ezimmerman / April 24, 2007 4:58 PM

i think you have a curse. you are cursed with good blogging style and whenever you blog your energy is sapped.

its like when the gummy bears drink their juice and are mad skilled bounce a mouncers and then it runs out and they tank.

if i had to choose you are the bear that is always finding honey and falling asleep but once in a while whoops ass and saves the day. i forget his name.

im like the grandma because i like to wear aprons and bad wigs and i whoop my friends ass into shape. and i make great juice.

JOOOOOOOOOOs

- samir / April 24, 2007 5:16 PM

JOUCE

- gene / April 25, 2007 10:29 AM

jews.

- signe c. / April 30, 2007 1:16 AM

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